Just a little bit Lost.Saturday, November 13, 2010
Sometimes I wonder what the hell I'm doing with my life.
I wonder if I'm doing the right things, making the right choices, going down the right paths.
I wonder if I'm supposed to be feeling this lost. I wonder whether I should be happier than I am, more accomplished than I am.
I wonder if I will be happy with the decisions I make. I wonder whether I am just settling for my life right now, or whether I really want to be on this path.
I look at others, and I wonder if they're really happy, or whether they are content with the lives they are leading now.
I feel like I'm barrelling through life at warp speed, and that I haven't really slowed down to enjoy it, to live it. Am I supposed to? Or am I only allowed to do that once I've achieved what I need to achieve? What is it, really, that I need to achieve?
Is money meant to be saved, continuously hoarded for the impending, and seemingly inevitable, 'rainy day'?
Sometimes, I feel like leaving it all. Taking myself out of the running. Is happiness really at that finish line? I highly doubt it.
Oh, well. Maybe that's what holidays are for.